I’m home now! After a
long three days of travel I’m finally home!
The anticipation of being home that was building up inside me has
finally been able to be released. However,
it’s not like I had expected it to be.
Actually, I didn’t know what to expect.
It’s weird and I’m not exactly sure how to react.
I feel that I’m in a numb
stage right now.
I shed a tear randomly, but never more than that.
I’m so happy to be home and so excited about the
future. But there seems to be a little
piece of me missing.
I recall the laughs and giggles of the children at preschool
and tuition. I imagine swooping them in
my arms while pecking their cheeks with a wet kiss. I see their little hands stack legos to form
a bulky cell phone or a house with no doors or windows. And then, they hold it proudly for me to
acknowledge their wonderful creation. In
my head I hear their high pitched voices sing praise songs, nursery rhymes, the
alphabet and numbers. I think about how
they are now. Will they remember me
always? Will they miss me? When will I see them again? Or will I?
I no longer have six other girls living with me. I can be alone. I’m home alone. But it’s strange and almost eerily
uncomfortable. I haven’t had time by
myself for the last three months. What
do I do?! Part of me is missing. My team.
My team that has help build me up.
My roommates. The my team that
has been through everything with me for the last three months. My team that has shared tears, laughs, pain,
sorrow, sickness, prayer and more. My
team that has become my family!
This transitioning into the next chapter of my life may be a
little harder than I thought. But I won’t
allow fear to set in. I won’t allow the
devil to hinder me from ministering to my family, friends, and strangers here
in America. I won’t let up on serving
the Lord. I won’t forget all that has
happened the last three months and I will apply all that I’ve learned. This chapter might have just ended but a new
one is beginning to unfold.
I cannot do it alone.
I no longer have my teammates, but my Master hasn’t left. My Leader.
My Lover. My Savior. My
Healer. My Redeemer. My Everything. My Jesus Christ is with me to lead me every
step of the way. He will hold my
hand. He will count my tears. He knows my sorrow. He knows the plans for my life. He will direct me. And I trust Him. I trust Him completely. He is all I want. Jesus Christ is the only one that will lead
me and guide me through every step of my life.
2 Samuel 22
