Before coming on this trip, I relied on my friends and family and communication and internet and familiarity and language and American food and many other things.
I didn’t realize the extent to which all things “normal” would be stripped away.
God is showing me how reliant I need to be on Him and how all other things will fail me in the end. At home, when something happens whether good or bad, I always rejoice or mourn with friends and family first, and God second. God is showing me how He needs to come first in everthing and in every situation.
Even in the very miniscule things, I am forced to cling to my King alone.
Prayer has become the theme of my life. Before this trip, I prayed, but only truly sought Him in times of trouble or when I needed something, but prayer has become the one constant in my life here.
Nothing here is definite. Plans change constantly, but God remains the same.
My goal for this trip has become to earnestly seek Him before anything else and my prayer is that it will overflow into my life when I return to familiarity. Once I have people and my language and my home back, I do not want to again find my identity in that, but seek the Lord above all else.
I want to be completely dependent on Him alone for energy and strength and joy and love because everything of me that I have to offer the women here is nothing in comparison to what He has to offer them!
