How do you sum up experiences in a way that connects to
others as if they took the journey with you?
How do you tell them about the love you felt or the days you
felt at complete peace or the moments that will always stay in your mind and
heart for the remainder of your life…How can I express my emotions, feelings
and life lived in India for four months, where do I began and where do I end..
I guess what I am saying is that what I have seen and experienced can truly
only be a gift that has been given to me, I will try to share it with others
but it does not hold the same value, and because of that I consider this gift
the best gift I could have ever had for these past months and I will hold it
precious in my life and in my heart.
There are many memories I could share with you, and stories
I could write… There is so much I want to say, but this is a short moment
that happened recently and I find it to beautiful not to share…
A couple weeks ago I was very weak and not feeling very
well, I had missed many days with the children at Asha. I remember lying in my
room and looking out the window and seeing the light bounce from the leaves and
feeling a slight breeze, I relished in this moment and thought about how
blessed I was to be here in India, I thought about the kids and how much I
loved them for each of their personalities, their smiles their laughs and how
they made me so joyful, I missed them and I had only missed a day or two
without them.
I went to Asha for
dinner later that night while I was still feeling very weak and overheated, the
girls could see that I was not feeling well so they took me upstairs to where a
soft breeze was coming from outside, they came around me and held my hand and
swept the hair from my face and looked at me with such genuine concern and
care. They began taking some baby powder and put some on my face and arms to
help me cool down. They each gave me hugs and held onto me, I could barely hold
myself together in that moment because I felt so loved and cherished by these
girls that I love with all my heart.
It was such a beautiful moment because the love I felt for
them I felt from them and I felt at peace.
I can’t imagine getting on a plane soon and not having the
choice to go and walk over to Asha and see my family there, to be able to hug
them and hold them when I want. The time that we have been given each day has
been so precious and so amazing, it has been a blessing.
These kids and my new family here in India have changed my
heart in so many ways, I feel as if my heart has grown into something I never
expected, it has grown in the best kind of love, and that is the Lords love…
Even if I cannot express how I had my heart changed, I know
that the people I know and love will be able to see it in the way I live.
I plan on taking this new love and sharing it with everyone
I meet and know…This is a gift that I can share…It is a gift that everyone will
be able to fully understand and experience in full, it will be the most precious
gift that I can bring home.
I thank God for these children, for this place and for the
mission here.
I will miss it more than words could say.
